Back to that clutter thing I posted about on an earlier post! Have had a great weekend with visits from daughter, granddaughter and grandson. Now the house cleaning thing again. Some of the things that I just leave lying around my house (that one could refer to as clutter) remain in the same spot because it serves as a reminder that yes, children are still an important part of our household! Although they do not live here all the time, the toys and play areas do serve a purpose for me as well as for them. As I look around instead of seeing toys scattered all over the place, I see unfinished business! Yes, unfinished children's business that still needs to be completed. This gives me great feelings of joy as I muddle through my work week and reminds me each day that soon there will be some little ones back in my house to complete that important business of theirs. I smile to myself and clean around it.

Things never said

We sit in silence. There are things that should or could be said, but aren't. There are questions that could or should be asked but, aren't. Instead, we sit quietly together and offer a smile to one another from time to time. We may talk about the news or weather, a television show, or other people but, the important things that could or should be discussed never are. Is this the way it has always been? Maybe, I don't remember. This is the way it is now. What does she think about? How does she feel? Angry, sad, scared, lonely? Tired, weak or hurting? I don't know, she doesn't say and I do not ask. A hug and a kiss an I'll miss you, tears, I love yous exchanged and goodbyes. An " I'll be back soon" from me, a yes nod from her. A wiping of tears as we pass. A wave from the porch, a wave back from the car, goodbye mom! A thought from me, I love you mom and it is hard to leave you here.